Self criticism

When I revisit my blog today
After a long gap
Of more than a month
And read a poem
- and more of them -
Of which I was quite proud
When I was away,
I think I was really naive
While writing those
And emotionally misdirected
To be so mistakenly eager
To bask in self glory
That I ended up
Doing mediocre work.

It was this disorientation, I feel
From the actual work
And towards self glory
That prompted such action
And such results from me.

Today I am conscious
That I was mediocre.

And this consciousness of mine
Raises me a level above
So, I think!